.yas ton od

achelusa @ 2005-01-31T16:43:00

2005-01-31T21:43:09Z

achelusa @ 2004-12-15T04:24:00

2004-12-15T11:03:24Z

it's great to know i'll be 18 before my container of cashews expires.

achelusa @ 2004-11-20T11:49:00

2004-11-20T17:12:56Z

i spot a distant cloud and look in the opposite direction, spot another. they must be a thousand miles apart. i'm always bothered by the dome.

i could say, "i'm so irritable today," but who gives a fuck if i'm irritable?

achelusa @ 2004-11-03T06:18:00

2004-11-03T11:25:25Z

i tell you, eat generic cherry popsicles to become adjusted to the flavour of cough syrup. god damned president talk.

so ill at school. i try to refrain from vomitting, since stomach acid will damage my already bad teeth. calcium deposits and yellow tinge, gap in the front. if it were like the time a few months ago, it'd get on my jacket laying by the toilet. i'd smell old and soured all day, maybe people'd contort their faces if i were to breathe on them. a whole gallon of orange juice yesterday. absorbic acid, stomach acid, acid rain, with DMSO on doorknobs. cute squares adorned with pictures. everything's burning up, especially my liver.

achelusa @ 2004-10-28T06:11:00

2004-10-28T10:10:46Z

So what do I do on Halloween?

achelusa @ 2004-10-27T15:14:00

2004-10-27T19:14:43Z

dirty sponge!
i can hate everything!
'traci, put away clean dishes,
load dishwasher, clean sink &
counters.' no 'love, mom.'
i'm not deserving and i'm
still called a goth.

achelusa @ 2004-10-20T08:27:00

2004-10-20T12:29:56Z

i hate the new final fantasies! anime and manga trends are obnoxious. so is dance dance revolution. and roleplaying.
every sort of "alternative/intellectual" kid is all up into this sort of thing, ya! i hope the fascination dies out, like it did with immitation seventies clothing when i was in the fourth grade or so. i remember, and so do you! bell bottoms and peace signs, cheap smileys, beads. good.

achelusa @ 2004-10-18T17:25:00

2004-10-18T21:43:06Z

I guess being so detached becomes overwhelming (tiresome) at times, and the idea of not being such a maniacal asshole forms.. I toy with the idea of not being disliked by my classmates. I like to reinvent myself, too. I'm not doing anything. It's just sort of dreary, the way it is... I've said this before, but I crave the company of someone different.

achelusa @ 2004-10-18T14:45:00

2004-10-18T18:56:36Z

I want to tell someone, "And you're
what I look forward to, when it's
uncomfortably cold and my dad's
bitching starts as soon as I enter
the house.

Androgynous Hands

2004-10-17T20:24:49Z

achelusa @ 2004-10-11T14:52:00

2004-10-11T18:57:08Z

when painfully picked out, the scab inside my right nostril will regrow within 25-30 minutes.

dots in control...

so, who dresses for halloween to school?

enter coarse

2004-10-01T12:07:08Z

the big bus lets out all the white girls,
backs over them, over and over,
runs over them, runs them over
they're getting paralyzed

achelusa @ 2004-07-24T21:31:00

2004-07-25T01:32:14Z

Try to refrain from ripping the crotch out of your pants..
'Cause

....
Stubble on my sticky lips
You're the only one I'd ever want
(Only one I'd ever want, only one I'd ever want)
Beautiful boys on a beautiful dancefloor
Michael, you're dancing like a beautiful dance whore
Waiting on a silver platter now, and nothing matters now.

achelusa @ 2004-07-24T20:37:00

2004-07-25T00:41:34Z

i'd so love to arrange my furniture in my basement dwelling, but there's debri strewn all under, over, about the place. an, there's a drain under my television that spreads (deadly?) mold and filthy water. god, i wish i had some ambition.
please, someone reward me with ambition. i'll perform any reasonable task, lacking ambition, in order to gain it.
right.

achelusa @ 2004-07-12T00:21:00

2004-07-12T04:26:51Z

Shot in the head, I can see
I can see it

But I can't feel it.

achelusa @ 2004-07-06T17:02:00

2004-07-06T21:14:03Z

achelusa @ 2004-06-30T10:54:00

2004-06-30T14:57:12Z

Yeah, my GRANDMOTHER saw it and made a disgusted face without saying a word. What the Hell?! I've been bothered by that for nearly a half hour since she did it.

achelusa @ 2004-06-29T10:45:00

2004-06-29T14:49:42Z

Oh, I forgot.

I'm obsessed with a new French subtitled movie- Artemisia.
I continued to pause it at the end to sketch the girl with her back turned, braided hair pinned to her head, capturing a beach of long sticks piled together with her bandaged hands.

I do still have a scanner. Maybe I'll scan some drawings an' things. Well, I'm sure I will. I just wonder how soon.

achelusa @ 2004-06-21T14:10:00

2004-06-21T18:16:59Z

Okay, look what I did!

I sometimes wish I had large, shapely, feminine lips. But, ehh.. I don't. So I made some ugly, psuedo lips. (Or, tried to.)

And baby oil made it possible to rid myself of the hideous porn star'ish things.

achelusa @ 2004-06-14T14:06:00

2004-06-14T18:10:42Z

The adventures of
CAT OUTSIDE.

my cat's name is Cat.
and she wanted to explore the patio and back porch today.

My dog is so damned ugly.

achelusa @ 2004-06-08T12:23:00

2004-06-08T16:39:49Z

I've been fiddling with Modify Journal and Personal Info a good bit!

You should loooooookie.

Mmm-Bop!

2004-06-08T15:24:47Z

achelusa @ 2004-04-19T19:13:00

2004-04-19T23:16:48Z

achelusa @ 2004-04-18T11:28:00

2004-04-18T15:30:35Z

Ginger Snaps 2: Unleashed was greeaat. The ending bothered me but I had to watch it again.

achelusa @ 2004-04-13T09:08:00

2004-04-13T13:20:05Z

i don;t know where i'm going.
it's info'tech' and ashley's a bit too much today, so i'm sitting here in the corner, aloneselves.
i'm tired of these droning modules, i just made a 17% on one.
apparently i look strung-out.
i strangely find sickly, herion-addicted-like individuals somewhat appealing. i'll never completely understand why i'm ugly. closet narcissist?

the inside of my nose smells stale and putrid, i feel hot slime oozing through my nasal cavity to my throat. i;ve had this "cold" for weeks.