.yas ton od

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 21:43:09 GMT

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 11:03:24 GMT

it's great to know i'll be 18 before my container of cashews expires.

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 17:12:56 GMT

i spot a distant cloud and look in the opposite direction, spot another. they must be a thousand miles apart. i'm always bothered by the dome.

i could say, "i'm so irritable today," but who gives a fuck if i'm irritable?

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 11:25:25 GMT

i tell you, eat generic cherry popsicles to become adjusted to the flavour of cough syrup. god damned president talk.

so ill at school. i try to refrain from vomitting, since stomach acid will damage my already bad teeth. calcium deposits and yellow tinge, gap in the front. if it were like the time a few months ago, it'd get on my jacket laying by the toilet. i'd smell old and soured all day, maybe people'd contort their faces if i were to breathe on them. a whole gallon of orange juice yesterday. absorbic acid, stomach acid, acid rain, with DMSO on doorknobs. cute squares adorned with pictures. everything's burning up, especially my liver.

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 10:10:46 GMT

So what do I do on Halloween?

Wed, 27 Oct 2004 19:14:43 GMT

dirty sponge!
i can hate everything!
'traci, put away clean dishes,
load dishwasher, clean sink &
counters.' no 'love, mom.'
i'm not deserving and i'm
still called a goth.

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 12:29:56 GMT

i hate the new final fantasies! anime and manga trends are obnoxious. so is dance dance revolution. and roleplaying.
every sort of "alternative/intellectual" kid is all up into this sort of thing, ya! i hope the fascination dies out, like it did with immitation seventies clothing when i was in the fourth grade or so. i remember, and so do you! bell bottoms and peace signs, cheap smileys, beads. good.

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 21:43:06 GMT

I guess being so detached becomes overwhelming (tiresome) at times, and the idea of not being such a maniacal asshole forms.. I toy with the idea of not being disliked by my classmates. I like to reinvent myself, too. I'm not doing anything. It's just sort of dreary, the way it is... I've said this before, but I crave the company of someone different.

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 18:56:36 GMT

I want to tell someone, "And you're
what I look forward to, when it's
uncomfortably cold and my dad's
bitching starts as soon as I enter
the house.

Androgynous Hands

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 20:24:49 GMT

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 18:57:08 GMT

when painfully picked out, the scab inside my right nostril will regrow within 25-30 minutes.

dots in control...

so, who dresses for halloween to school?

enter coarse

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 12:07:08 GMT

the big bus lets out all the white girls,
backs over them, over and over,
runs over them, runs them over
they're getting paralyzed

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 01:32:14 GMT

Try to refrain from ripping the crotch out of your pants..
'Cause

....
Stubble on my sticky lips
You're the only one I'd ever want
(Only one I'd ever want, only one I'd ever want)
Beautiful boys on a beautiful dancefloor
Michael, you're dancing like a beautiful dance whore
Waiting on a silver platter now, and nothing matters now.

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 00:41:34 GMT

i'd so love to arrange my furniture in my basement dwelling, but there's debri strewn all under, over, about the place. an, there's a drain under my television that spreads (deadly?) mold and filthy water. god, i wish i had some ambition.
please, someone reward me with ambition. i'll perform any reasonable task, lacking ambition, in order to gain it.
right.

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 04:26:51 GMT

Shot in the head, I can see
I can see it

But I can't feel it.

Tue, 06 Jul 2004 21:14:03 GMT

Wed, 30 Jun 2004 14:57:12 GMT

Yeah, my GRANDMOTHER saw it and made a disgusted face without saying a word. What the Hell?! I've been bothered by that for nearly a half hour since she did it.

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 14:49:42 GMT

Oh, I forgot.

I'm obsessed with a new French subtitled movie- Artemisia.
I continued to pause it at the end to sketch the girl with her back turned, braided hair pinned to her head, capturing a beach of long sticks piled together with her bandaged hands.

I do still have a scanner. Maybe I'll scan some drawings an' things. Well, I'm sure I will. I just wonder how soon.

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 18:16:59 GMT

Okay, look what I did!

I sometimes wish I had large, shapely, feminine lips. But, ehh.. I don't. So I made some ugly, psuedo lips. (Or, tried to.)

And baby oil made it possible to rid myself of the hideous porn star'ish things.

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 18:10:42 GMT

The adventures of
CAT OUTSIDE.

my cat's name is Cat.
and she wanted to explore the patio and back porch today.

My dog is so damned ugly.

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 16:39:49 GMT

I've been fiddling with Modify Journal and Personal Info a good bit!

You should loooooookie.

Mmm-Bop!

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 15:24:47 GMT

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 23:16:48 GMT

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 15:30:35 GMT

Ginger Snaps 2: Unleashed was greeaat. The ending bothered me but I had to watch it again.

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 13:20:05 GMT

i don;t know where i'm going.
it's info'tech' and ashley's a bit too much today, so i'm sitting here in the corner, aloneselves.
i'm tired of these droning modules, i just made a 17% on one.
apparently i look strung-out.
i strangely find sickly, herion-addicted-like individuals somewhat appealing. i'll never completely understand why i'm ugly. closet narcissist?

the inside of my nose smells stale and putrid, i feel hot slime oozing through my nasal cavity to my throat. i;ve had this "cold" for weeks.